I always thought that being a Christian was about going to church and serving in church. Basically living for Sundays.
I was always told things like, “Make sure you pay your tithes and give your offering.” “Be a good girl.” “Make sure you are doing good and even when you’re doing bad, the people that know you won’t catch you doing bad”. So basically, I was living to serve a particular set of people, not realising it was all about God. It was okay to go to the clubs and do anything, as long as the people that were not supposed to see you didn’t see you. I’d then go back to church on Sunday to serve and act perfect, just like everyone else.
The truth was something that I found out about a year ago and it’s so far off from religion. It’s now a way of life; not trying to please anyone but making sure my life aligns with what God wants me to be. I never knew it was possible to talk to God or to hear from him. I knew it was real but I just thought whatever the pastor said on Sunday was it and it would end there. For me, it was normal to go to school, graduate & get a job, hustle, make money, get married, have kids, grow old, and then die. That was basically what life meant to me. So I felt, “Why not just have fun while you can.” I didn’t realise there was much more to life than that. Of course, I knew I had certain things inside of me but I didn’t understand where my place in God was at the time.
It was an eye opener for me when I finally realised that there was more to God and God was bigger than what I ever imagined him to be.